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2009-03-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

ouh...interesting...juz had a nice short nap beside my lapy ((:

long time didnt sleep while leaving a laptop/desktop on...hahas.

cuz i was using my lappy on my table, and my bed is juz beside...

so juz now reali got tired and went to sleep...

hmmm...luckily its still not burning after being on for such a long time...

hahas.

well, dunno wad to do next...

dun feel like sleeping...

juz had another dream...

not gonna say the details although i could remember it...(most of it)...

so well, now continue msning and listening to songs...

but the following day's activities...anyone? =X

2009-03-17T09:47:00.000+08:00

siala...long time never wake up so early liao...
juz now woke up at 9am after my phone's alarm rang (and its juz the phone speakers wakin me up)...lols.
perhaps beuz of using tis new device of mine to get into net and everything...
well, nowadays after work too tired to post words so seldom post...
plus nowadays are gettin killed by my bored holidays and boring life.
ytd juz went to SP for doin the enrolment thingy.
juz at the time i get out of the convention centre, saw lawrence char and his friend...
then at the IT roadshow there becuz of the lenovo booth i lost sight of him....
and well, at the lenovo thinkpad's dunno where, while waiting for the stocks to come to me, saw haiqing and his dunno whu...
then after i got the lappy i left him cuz there's one guy whu unpack for me etc...
then went for configuration, outside tat lecture room saw choon how and kinda surprise tat he's there...
approach him to ask wad is he doin there, and he said he's accompanying jun jie...and well, he's juz inside the room and i entered, but didnt take much notice to him cuz i went all the way back as there's an entire table, empty...
so after the configuration i went out alone, and saw one guy (who i doesnt even knw since the day i was born =.=)...then i smile to him and after we took the lift down he come to me and talk...
then he askes me tat is this my first poly i entered, and i say yes...
then i ask him back, and he said tat he went for poly previously but i forget wad reason he didnt get the diploma...heard he went NS then, and into SP tis year after the ORD from NS...
well, then go mrt station, at the platform saw jun jie, his mum and chooon how...
then we go back to cck together, and took bus 300 cuz we're holding lots of stuffs etc...
then reach home ard 6.30plus, then put my lappy on the table and charge it as i shld (but the guy whu pass me the lappy didnt tell me how long shld i charge it o.O), and well, called sx to ask how long and he said 12 hours, so i juz left it down at my table and i went to online with my dad's desktop...
so...tats all probably...boring days...=.=
tis evening goin out to eat (most probably) with diana...so long since i last met her during school days and at some point of time at public (but tat was so rare...)...

2009-03-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

juz took train home after a day's work tat ends at 11.30pm.
got up into the last train towards joo koon, then drop at jurong east and took the last train towards dunno where which terminates at ang mo kio. then during the journey from bukit batok to bukit gombak, while reading a book, i heard the announcer saying: "next staion: city hall interchange. please mind the platform gap"...then i was like: "wad the fuck? did i get into the wrong train?" cuz i remember getting into the middle platform at jurong east...so shldnt be wrong...and i stopped reading cuz my mind is into another topic far away from wad i was reading...then after a while, the train arrive at bukit gombak, and i was at total relief...*phew!*...then i didnt get back to the book cuz i am totally lost in my mind and in the river of words...then, on the way from bukit gombak to cck, i heard 4 times the announcer saying tat the train is goin to dhoby ghaut station...same thing in my mind...then i realise tat the announcing system was blundered by some kind of dunno wad problem...o.O
well, after tat i notice its (still) drizzling, like how it was all the way from city hall when i walked to the city hall mrt station under no shelter...
so i juz make my way home from cck mrt station under tat drizzling rain...(as usual if it rains at tis late hour)
nothing much to elaborate cuz there'll be nothing amazing when u are doin the same old thing daily...boring daily routine i had.
15march: last day of IT fair at suntec = last day of flooding crowd at work. but also means tat those IT products (may) be selling at lower price... and i wonder if i could get something there during tis day...DESIRE!

2009-03-11T20:58:00.000+08:00

today go work, then after tat roam suntec, then go home.
eat and face the com.
then tml till 15 march got IT show at suntec convention hall...tat means many ppl will flood my workplace...and somemore tml work full shift...fun + shag...(i suppose)
then juz saw the advertisement of the career expo at suntec from 20 to 22 march...at halls 602 & 603, Level 6, from 10am to 7pm...16 years old and above, but they require registration...so wonder will it be busy or not...
bored...dun feel like doin anything now...listening song and doing nothing...=.= boring days...

ignorance is everywhere.

what can i do if i miss someone?
someone told me to go meet tat person, or maybe juz giv a call, or even msg tat someone...its juz easier to tell than to be done...
but wad if nothing ever help, or nothing can ever be done? is it "no roads left" for me?
i'm so getting irritated to dwell on the same topic over and over again...

2009-03-10T00:36:00.000+08:00

juz reached home after having an outing with sx, mak, ash, JiAn, ken, isaac, guofeng and boon.

met them up at 6plus at cwp cuz i woke up late...=.=

then go eat sakkae till i wanna vomit...ugh!

spend $24 on tat...didnt reali go count exactly how much each cost...juz pass the money to guofeng cuz he footed the bill first...

then wander at the timezone there for a while, and make way back to the west.

then mak followed us, then we decided to go limbang LAN to play dota.

then book for 2 hours starting from 9plus, then ard 1130 we exit the LAN shop and make our way home...

kinda fun but still, i tink the venue is kinda near (cuz i prefer town), and the duration is a little short too (i prefer mid or early noon to night)...

nowadays i tink i fulfilled my wish: to have many outings with friends. (its so obvious cuz i spend loads of cash...) lol. hahas.

FUN FUN FUN!!!

2009-03-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

i hate it when ppl neglect or ignore u...do u?
bored. didnt want to blog anything for today...
didnt feel like sharing my thoughts now...sorry all.
maybe next time.

been feeling angry, fiery, burning,

2009-03-08T00:10:00.000+08:00

siala...didnt feel so good this few days...
from ytd, feel like shitting all the time...dunno is it diarrhoea or not...
haix...then coughing all the time too...
but luckily it doesnt reali affect all the things i do la...like jogging, gaming etc...juz tat its reali irritating to cough and feel shitting all the time...o.O

2009-03-07T05:05:00.000+08:00

(the colour similar to my blog's =P)
N+ on psp platform.
'N' stands for 'N'inja.
so it means u are controling a 'N'inja in tis game.
there are plenty of episodes, each comes with few levels in it (well, i didnt reali count it).
there a level, which could possible be completed in 10 secs without being dead, but i died 400+ times in order to complete it...o.O

there was mines which explodes when u hit it, laser turrent which acts like a snipers - aims and shoot u, zap dome which 'zap's u when u touch it, and an exit which comes with a switch which are located at 2 ends of the map. The only sniper is located at the centre point of the map, which means no matter where u are, it will aim and shoot u...omg la...lol.

but...

its still kinda fun...

probably i'll rate it 4/5...?

2009-03-07T02:24:00.000+08:00

highlights of the day:
#1: i drop my psp >.<
#2: i late for work :P

juz dotaed with ash again.
i'm still so noob like i used to be.
well, not much things happen today.
so...tats all for today...
life is juz boring if u work for too much...
-no friends
-no outing
-no fun
-no happiness

so its still better to hav some day off, or juz hav more free time to do wad u like...
tats life...o.O

2009-03-06T00:13:00.000+08:00

never notice it rain till i left suntec tower.
then went on bus 700A with anwar and aisyah.
then send and play psp game with anwar on the journey to bukit panjang.
then reached, and anwar got down 1 bus stop after the one he suppose to alight.
then waited 190 cuz its raining heavily.
then ard 1140 i walked from cck interchange home, after a moment of hestitation.
then it was cold and dark and lonely.
not gonna talk more abt it anymore.
tml got work. the good news is tat the faggot's off tml.
so means less annoying and irritated times in the workplace.
so. dunno wad will be happening tml.
lets see and tell tml.
^my tml=6march...assume i am posting on 5march.

2009-03-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

cold weather, cold night, cold world...and its freezing inside me- my body, mind, soul.
loneliness alwaes love to look up upon me...
wonder why, wonder how...
wad shld i do?
whenever i tink of u...missing u and everything.
its so difficult to explain in words...
damn. so long...and still counting on...the days tat i miss u.
so when are we gonna meet again? i'm still thinkin while waiting for the day to come.
but will my dreams come true?

2009-03-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

2009-03-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

siala...forget to post alot of things...
some pics took during the celebration of waikhee de birthday:

NO ONE EVERYWHERE!!!!!

THE FOUNTAIN...nothing special till u see tis:

......

HE'S BLEEDING!!! ARGH!

ah nvm...tats all for the pics...=.=

2009-03-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

wah shit...feel like shitting now...=.=

anyway juz had a nap from 8plus till now...

then woke up, and feel like "touching" the comp...

morning meet lutfil for jogging at stadium...

then noontime suppose meet sx, ziyad and lutfil onli, but fuad, khairul and sufi oso went with us...

then in mrt saw jian and junxian...heading to west mall.

then reach the SATA there, follow the instructions, do the test, but lots of damn funny and sickening things happen there la...we're like laughing our asses out most of the time...lols.

then saw sanly and sufei there too...

then while the rest of us are in the clinic, sufi and fuad went to the library...

few things we do during the checkup: #1: chest x-ray; #2: urine test; #3: test for blood pressure; #4: eyesight/colour deficiency test; #5: height/weight; #6: doctor consultation.

well, like wad lutfil said, this test is a little too detailed test for some courses like IT.

wonder why ppl goin for tat course are also require to do x-ray and urine test etc...

weird?

2009-03-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

wad's in my mind now:

#1: my phone bill = $135+

#2: i want my psp back!

#3: i've not been exercising for days...

#4: should i be happy or sad with my life?

#5: i'm totally broke...

#6: damn! wads more i'm thinkin?

#7: missed out some pics in the past few posts...

omg. i've been thinkin of weird stuffs...

currently juz back from work...

nothing much to say...

hope to see you soon, darling...i miss u.

2009-03-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

juz went out in the noon with waikhee and sx, to suntec in the noon and fullerton at night.
suppose sanly goin. but after waiting for her for 1 hr at cck, she told us tat she dun wanna go cuz there's no girls tat is attending. so the 3 of us got on the train and to city hall...
well, it didnt went out as boring as wad i thought, cuz there's much talkings in between us, lots of different topics to talk abt...so its kinda good, plus there's some kind of entertainment with the psp. hahas.
hmmm...lots of pics goin to be posted in a moment's time...maybe the next post bah...currently still uploading it to the net...BORING! took so bloody long la...sian.

well, big brother told me something kinda make sense juz now abt buying laptop...
cuz my studies require a laptop, so i was thinkin of some high-end and gaming and multi-purpose laptop, so can watch movie, play game and study at 1 laptop...its like a all-in-one la...
but one thing is...he used to spend $3000 on a laptop years ago, and it onli last him for 3 years...meaning, its doesnt mean tat such a laptop will last for years...the lifespan actually depends on the way u treat the com both physically and systematically...
so...i tink it does make sense, since my main purpose now for using a notebook is for studies and studies...so maybe i'll juz get a laptop with economic specifications and low price? maybe something less than 1.5K? hmm...still thinking*

2009-03-01T02:26:00.001+08:00

WAIKHEE DE BIRTHDAY 1ST OF MARCH.

wish him la hor...happie happie birthday...old man.

lols. tkcr tkcr dude...see u around.((:

2009-03-01T02:26:00.000+08:00

WAIKHEE DE BIRTHDAY 1ST OF MARCH.

wish him la hor...happie happie birthday...old man.

lols. tkcr tkcr dude...see u around.((:

2009-03-01T02:10:00.000+08:00

ok...juz back home...
juz now took bus 700A to bukit panjang, then fucking no bus...it was onli 0030hrs lor...knn sia..
then no choice walk home...
sian...then talk on the phone all the way...

juz juz now afternoon go out with xuanjie, then saw someone whu works beside my working place (once before)...so...make friends, and 3 of us walk etc to suntec, then blahblahblah...
then go my workplace, they eat something, then go off, and i continue working...

nothing much to elaborate...cuz life is alwaes like this...
so now try to post, then find things to do...if not then i go sleep liao...lols.
tml(later) need wake up early, meet some ppl go gaigai...((:

2009-03-01T02:08:00.000+08:00

okay...ashley had a more summarized description on the day we go out...so...
here's the LINK...

2009-02-28T08:45:00.000+08:00

I'M STILL WONDERING: WHY THE HELL IS MY BLOG SO BRIGHT?! LOLS...*EYE PAIN*

2009-02-28T08:24:00.000+08:00

OKOKOK!!! ENOUGH OF IT...!!! ALRIGHT?

ppl tryin to compare whu's "emo-er" in blogging...but i alwaes win...o.O

so...tryin to make something FCKIN new and DIFFERENT!

hahas. stop it man...everyone shld compare something different - let's see whu's blog is happier.

well, i am probably (mostly) gonna win...HAHAS.

last night, mak, sx, ash, ahjiing, MF and boon told me tat readin my blog is such a miserable cuz its full of emo shits and so on.

well, spend bloody hours to edit and change it...stupid sia...my entire midnight juz end like this.

well, hope more fuckers will come and view this fckin blog...

MUAHAHA!!! lols...(juz bloody jking)

its another tonning again...

so early now...and i'm famishing.

later afternoon gonna meet xuanjie...hmm...so long nvr see her alr lor...

currently its so freakin boring cuz everyone's asleep...

why cant someone juz be awake like me and acc me? bloody hell...

NVM...I'LL WAIT! for someone to be online...

and I WANT TO EAT!!! T.T

lols.

2009-02-28T04:43:00.000+08:00

ok...back to posting...lols...

juz dota-ed with sx, mak, boon, ahjiing and ash.

lol. i'm juz a damn noob.

so...previous to the previous topic: the outing...

here's some pics taken at yuki-yaki juz nw:

DINNER...(beef grilling)...

ICE CREAM COOKING:

^cooking the ice cream

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^almost done..

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^yummy ((:

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^my "delicious" mixture...lols

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^all those ice cream cups tat we've eaten at one of the two tables...hahas. hell loads..

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^the mess created by all of us...lols.

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havin hell loads of fun, but also spend hell loads of cash...ard 40bucks...

but anyway, fun and friendship is priceless...so kinda worth it. ((:

2009-02-28T01:38:00.000+08:00

juz back home...

met up with sx, ash, ah jiing, mak, boon, elmo and matthewfong at cck stadium, then head off to marina square for yuki-yaki. suppose is a class outing, but i tink its more like the boy's-day-out...lols.

well, hav lots of fun, but too bad i'm wearing the worst among all...lols...(slippers).

hahas.

nvm...nxt time muz wear sakki liao...damn u all...(jk)

well, after yuki-yaki, we were dwelling on either bowling, LAN or pool...then in the end decided to pool...

elmo went home after the yuki-yaki thingy...then left the 7 of us go pool...

6 of us play, but sx didnt play...dun tink he's interested in such stuffs man...

well, the tagging thingy is juz a misunderstanding sx...lols...

well, gonna post more later...

cuz currently downloading Garena and goin for dota in some time later with some of the guys...

hahas...well, thanks alot guys...reali hav much fun with u ppl...hahas...

go out muz jio me hor...hahas. see u guys around man.!

2009-02-27T02:40:00.000+08:00

juz missed out some pics i forgot to post 2 days ago (25feb)...
well, basically i saw rainbow on the way home from work...
cuz its simply: drizzling, cloudy and partial sunny...
so its a collaboration between the rain and the sun and here comes the rainbow...
its been so damn long since i saw one in the sky...wow...
still remember the first time i remember seeing one of it was when i'm K2, which is 6yrs old, ard 10yrs ago...hahas.
so...took some pics of it like a fool in the street...
cuz so few ppl ever notice it...like wad i say, no one ever appreciate or notice nature...currently ppl reali treat work and time more important then anything else. haix.
the first 3 pics are taken at cityhall, somewhere beside swissotel, and the last 2 were taken at jurong east mrt at evening time...o.O

^if u notice the second and third pic, u shld be able to see another light rainbow formed at the top left hand side...hahas...although it might not be so clear in the image, but its quite surprising for it to be seen...((:

2009-02-27T02:27:00.000+08:00

the best part of my working life: those time without HIM around...i reali hav to say tat...

he's the one!: whu makes everyone's workin life there miserable...damn him...

but todae, its so great tat he's not there, when i reached...

work today is simply: havin lots of fun, slackin and talkin...then eating, washing and closing...

then after work went to take bus with anwar (as we used to whenever we are on the same shift)...then lepak with him at some bus stop near pending lrt station...till...0116hrs when we reali cant see any pessenger buses (not even night rider), then i decided to head home and so does he.

so reached home at ard 0206hrs, roughly took 50mins to travel back home by foot. hmm...second time tat i've tried walkin home from there...

{bored bored bored}

no one's in msn today...wad a quiet and lonely night...

its alwaes been like tis for my life...loneliness...

there currently no one to be there to giv me warmth...not even a single soul.

i'm still waitin for her to be right here. i'm juz simple HERE WITHOUT YOU.

2009-02-26T16:15:00.000+08:00

boss called juz now ask me wan go work or not...then i agree...so later goin at 6pm...o.O cuz todae oso got nothin to do anyway...no activity...fuckin bored to stay at home for the entire day.

i'm so freakin bored...

tml got 4-5 '08 class gathering...but sadly, everyone is like: "wan go, dun wan go..."

then ah jiing's so pissed by them...-some dating, some no money, some busy, some work...

but seriously, wad could possible be more important than friends?

to those whu work: fuck off to u if u treat ur job more important than friends...so many of us are workin too...i juz cant understand those whu simply treat workin more important...why the fuck do u wanna spend so much time in ur bloody life to serve and work in a bloody company than spendin more time then friends?

i juz cant get it...a job u worked for few months vs friends that u've been together for few years.

which would u choose? think twice. u work everyday...friends ask u out, u simply say no time, and think tat tats the end of the story...ur friends find another date for u, and u've got to work, and u say no again...juz think: how much time and effort do u need to waste ur friend's?

goin off to work...plan to post now but no time...sian...after work then post some stuffs lor...u gonna wait and see.

2009-02-25T19:51:00.000+08:00

ok...after some self viewing of my blog, the hit counter hit 1K again...=.= nothing surprise though...well, still tinkin of addin stuffs into the blog and make it different...damn codes...u knw me but i dun knw u...

siala...now fckin tired sia...last morning 930am wake up till now nvr sleep sia...then juz nw at work drank 2shot expresso, but it doesnt seem to help for long...juz a moment in time i feel like i can "fly" like those effects red bull give (you wings)...well, gonna post some pics later on i suppose...haix...now dunno wad to do...no activity, and the weather now is so complicated -cloudy, windy, drizzling and dam(n)!

2009-02-25T04:29:00.000+08:00

well, currently tryin my best to edit my blog...
currently: new songs, new background, new wishlist, new categories for the right column, and thinkin of things to edit...maybe some colour?
well, hopefully it will turn out to be nice...hahas. HOPEFULLY. (for the hopeless)
and so...if u reali dun like, CLICK HERE.

but...i still tink the picture of my previous post brings lots and lots of colours to my blog...maybe, i shld post more pictures like some other bloggers in some part of somewhere does...hmmm...maybe i'll update some other pics if i hav those tat i wanted to show bah...

>.< argh~~~

whispering: {i'm so hungry T.T}

i've wasted so many hours juz to adjust my blog here and there, and it ended up juz like old times...o.O

goin to stay awake till next sunset...prayin hard tat it isnt busy later during work =P

>afraid tat i might overslept juz like the past few days...

>juz wanna apologise to lutfil and sx for tat...so sorry man...everytime i promise to sleep early, but i alwaes failed to do so cuz i'm used to sleepin late and doin miscellaneous stuffs like downloading songs, uploading songs, editing blog, doodle etc...so...ya...

so better be awake...the clock's gonna strike 6am...still dwelling on the past, those days where i woke up and leave home at tis hour in the morning to meet someone somewhere...

our: past = reminisce; present = cherish; future = create...

i love u'

2009-02-25T01:25:00.000+08:00

felt so bored with some of those car image i downloaded, so eventually i went to edit those...
well, here's it:

lalala~

first image edit:

^some minor details lost throughout editing...but major details are still obvious...

second image edit:

^i kinda love tis one tat i've done...hahas...*proud* lols...

2009-02-24T02:06:00.000+08:00

its been such a boring life...boring days...boring me...

my life is so worthless...things tat i've done, words tat i've spoken, is becoming worthless...forever.

its been such a long time tat i feel my life worth a single cent.

too long to be told...

me, irritating, useless, lame, worthless, boring, sad, emo, fucked.

why the hell am i here? for a purpose?

everyone's in search of the main purpose of self and life.

but wad's mine?

somebody, work for such long hours, earning big bucks...

me? work for so little hours, earning little 'bugs'...

wad the hell shld i do? live? die? gone? or stay?

its such a complicated life for me to tell and for u to understand and i bet u wouldnt understand...definitely...

been findin a way to live life to the fullest and to live a worthy life...but so far the search brings in nothing...

my aspiration: being an air-flight specialist, buildin planes tat send ppl to the moon...

its such a big and wide dream for a person like me...i've got nothing...

alwaes been waitin and missing her...but when will i be able to see her face again?

i hate seeing things goin on in tis manner...u may be changing, or hav changed, but still...i will await for the day we meet up once again...

deep in thoughts:

i cannot afford to lose anyone in my life again. once is enough. its a deep pain inside my heart. although its been more than a year, but...the heart's still bleeding... ...no one sees, no one knows...i didnt wish to talk abt it at all time, but sometimes, those words are kept in me and onli me...not even my closest friend knw wad was i tinkin abt it...

currently, there's still no way to accept the fact tat u're gone forever. reali. no one will understand how i feel. forever bro; never apart.

2009-02-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

fuck sia...stupid job...next week schedule for work: tuesday: 11-4, wednesday: 12-5, saturday: 6-11...

fuck sia...bloody hell...total 15 hours...wtf sia...why cant juz let us all work for longer hours??? wtf...stupid sia...other friends all work so many hours, earn so much...but me? earning some little bugs...

2009-02-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

hey! i am damn back from jogging (again =.=)

well, tis time reali shag like SH!T.

whoa! non-stop for dunno how far...wahlaoeh! then walk the bloody stairs again...lalala~

what i feelin now: tired tired tired...shag shag shag...bored bored bored...

2009-02-23T20:41:00.000+08:00

juz nw go jogging at evening before the sun is down with lutfil and sx...then reach home, eat, and now msning and blogging while waiting for pritpal to pm me for another jog...lols...powerful sia...then supposingly lutfil oso gonna join us but i juz called and he told me he bathing...haix...then taufiq tml got test and homework so didnt wish to interupt him la...

gonna go off now...and hopefully it wouldnt take long...post more later when i'm back...

2009-02-23T14:24:00.000+08:00

bloody hell...kena bombed by tat bloody faggot. say i work monday 12 to 5...spend me 1 hr to get to my workplace, then anwar and lina asked: "u got work today meh?". then i went to check my schedule immediately and found out tat its the fact tat i need not need to go for work today. dammit la...then atd 1230 i make way home...waste my travelling fare and bloody 2.5 hours...fuck sia...

2009-02-23T02:02:00.000+08:00

what is hatred? it is the emotion of intense dislike; a feeling of dislike so strong that it demands action.

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but it cannot be explain literally...the word "hatred" may comprimise more than wad we tink...its a bloody word...it can mean KILL, it can mean DIE, it can mean anything bad in this world...its a cause of something, and it may cause something to happen.

hate is a STRONG word which brings all kinds of emotions out...it is so STRONG tat it can even dominate the word "LOVE": LOVE HATE; HATE LOVE. isnt tis word scary?

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why will living beings feel tis all the time? why cant oneself juz accept the fact and appreciate wad had happen to him/her? it might juz turn out to be a precious memory in life rather than a series of unfortunate events. a narrow-minded person may be affected greatly by small events but not an open-minded person...

hate may not come its way for those whu giv and take : LOVE.

2009-02-22T16:09:00.000+08:00

now my butt so pain...i suppose ben, ji-an and theo de oso lor...ride the damn bike with tat damn seat...phew! omg. juz gb-ed and msning...actually mornin need go jogging with lutfil but reali feel too tired...feelin like goin out, but nowhere and no one...so..sadded...then oso suppose to go peninsula with anwar, but notice tat i spend too much nowadays and reali dun wish to spend so much anymore...somemore peninsula reali kinda bored alr...so plan to go gymin and now waitin for anwar to reply me.

2009-02-22T02:21:00.000+08:00

YA! still remember...LOLS. hahas. today (22 feb) is ferlicia tan shimin de birthday lor...sian...she 17years old liao...so old. =P joking. but anyway, still wanna wish u a very happie birthday.

my dear de birthday oso ard the corner le...alr tink of wad to buy le...so...maybe...ya. (secret)

haix...dunno why i alwaes feel tat i'm left to post something tat i didnt...feel so weird...and ya...perhaps later in the noon i update more lor...post more things etc...well, now everyone's gonna be sleeping and i suppose to be in bed...so TAKE CARE MY FRIENDS...

friends forever.

well, ytd night after seeing some of my friends emoing, i juz feel like: i rather be the one whu's sad and emo and wadsoever than seeing my friends being in such manner.

2009-02-22T02:11:00.000+08:00

actually, after reading ben's blog, i found out tat he post alot more, tat i didnt reali notice tat i missed out alot of things tat happen lor...sianz...so better go read his blog cuz we spend quite some time together so...ya...LINK...
then ya..notice i got 4 minor cuts on my right palm, then juz nw reali tann quite alot...and theo even half naked tanning =.=
so. ya...reali feel lazy and reali dun wanna tink into further details on the activities cuz its better to be in memories than in words.
>>>juz tat i noticed tat i spend quite alot this few days...o.O
actually, before friday, i remember seeing 1 $50 note, few $10 notes, and alot $2 notes in my wallet...then after today, all gone...wow! lols. so...perhaps gonna stay low and save up cuz my stupid pay is way to low for me to spend...so better be good boi and do those fun activities (currently) without much expenditure.
so...maybe go walk walk at city and town or wad will do la...like wad we did last week (me, sx, waikhee, sanly, ferlicia, zhiting) at bugis and suntec. but still...i shld control myself of my own financial stuffs.

2009-02-22T01:24:00.000+08:00

ya ben is right...i set adult comment cuz he say tat too much vulgars, bad for kids, so better still la...in case got anyone go complain say got too much vulgars or wad lor...lols

juz reached home, then bath liao (cuz reali sweat and shag after the entire day's fun)...

well, 21 feb marks another memorable day in my life.
went to hav a mini gathering with some friend -> me, ben, sanly, agatha, ji-an, waikhee, zhiting, samantha, ferlicia, linda, theo, huien. supposingly got some others but then dunno why they never turn up. and so, met theo and ben at agatha's hse at 1130 supposingly, then i was late (as i used to be =P), then i reached at 1145, and we then enter agatha's hse and waited for her to prepare etc, then we all set off at 1230pm plus plus, then meet the rest ppl at 1pm plus. then ya...i knw tat sometimes i am reali irritating, but reali. i was juz trying to "entertain" ppl, but well, i juz failed everytime i does. *sadded*
then samantha, linda, zhiting and huien took the train, then the rest 8 of us took 2 cabs (suppose to book 1 7seater cab, but me and ben call and they keep askin us to hold, then told us no 7seaters at tat area-lot 1). then after tat ben, theo, agatha and ji-an reached before us although they get onto the cab much later than us, and they cost $21, but mine, $28, and we get onto the cab earlier sia...lols...weird driver. =.=

then after reached, we go find the pit all the way to the end of east coast, pit 79/80...=.=
its kinda nice la...tat place...peaceful, isolated, and nice view or the sea from far (its reali dirty when u get in contact with it -no doubt)...can see planes flying directly above us, can see nearly hundreds of sailors at sea (i estimated the amount), then ya...although its far and the plane might be noisy, but still, i enjoyed those memorable moments with friends la. hahas.

then we settle down, then me, theo, ji-an, ben go find the bike store and rent 4, then we cycle and find charcoal and ice, then halfway then ben say his mum send us charcoal and ice, so we went back, and onli saw the charcoal...then i dunno who go buy ice, and then i oso forget wad happen...juz hav fun and set the pit till when we return our bikes, then sam, me and linda took 3/4 cuz ben book till 7pm. then zhiting and ferlicia walked...then we walked back together after returning the bike, we walk~ walk~ walk~, and saw bee TWO times, and after tat we all went to the beach cuz zhiting wan to COOL DOWN, then we took photos (and basically is the girls tat enjoy it cuz my face sucks in both photo and real life)...so we took quite long time to go back to the pit, then saw them start bbq le...then we joined, eat, and ya...ENJOY! hahas...
then ya...reali took alot of photos, eat alot of food, drink lots of drinks, and most importantly, enjoying the moments of my life with friends tat i am close with.
so not gonna elaborate on cuz reali too long to elaborate. maybe later? i dunno when i'm gonna post again...=.=
ya! remember tat the scenario abt the alcoholic drinks...
at first i was tryin to be like my brother, using teeth to open the bottle...but found out tat i dunno need to use which part of the entire mouth, so i try using tong, and slice my palm, and theo use his casio watch, and ya...it works much much better..., and ya...open 3 of them and shared among us...and blahblahblah...
so ya...theo left at 7pm plus, then ben and zhiting at ard 7plus to 8pm, then after tat follow by ferlicia, samantha, linda and huien. and left me, sanly, agatha, waikhee and ji-an. so we juz finish up he last part of eating, packing etc lor...
then sanly playin with fire (emoing i tink), waikhee bbq-ing for himself and agatha and sanly to bring home, then me and ji-an and agatha dunno doin wad...
then after a while, ji-an go to the beach there emo, then sanly go accompany him, and me, waikhee and agatha played poker (cheats). then ya...still kinda fun, but its the best with everyone there i tink...perhaps next time a chalet? tat everyone will be having fun for days...hahas..."maybe" and "hopefully"...

then thanks to agatha...THANK YOU! fetch us all rest home...but had cramps on the journey, and reali kinda suffering...lols. but well, its ok lor...luckily minor cramps...*whew*

perhaps tats all lor...tink kinda long le...so bye...
and thanks to all the ppl tat attend...i reali enjoyed alot alot alot...*MEMORABLE*
but i still tink tat, i feel much much more comfortable to hang out with u guys lor...its reali better la...we may be taking the same foot steps in the past or present, but the future depends on wad we do NOW. so reali wish tat u ppl do hang out together and gather whenever u are free or wherever u are lor...cuz i tink, sec sch friends will last forever like no others. so...u guys ROX!

2009-02-20T01:44:00.000+08:00

knn sia...i fuckin hate it when ppl juz tryna make me in the middle of all those fucking things...

(juz a remark)

its like: the whole entire world, everyone, came crashing into u and tryna put the blame on u...

well, sorry for wad i've done in the past, present and future, but stop fuckin irritate me when i never do anything wrong! stop it!

well, nowadays got lots of worries here and there...

before the com went for servicing, i worry tat the com might lost all those precious memories, photos and documents, and it reali (dammit) lost everything...fuck my life.

worry abt her and onli her, worry abt her during my work, and even when i'm asleep, i dreamt abt her...haix. everything abt her is in my mind...

well, dun reali knw wad to say alr...everything's on my mind and it cant be replaced tat easily as i tot usually, in words...haix. so perhaps when it somes to my mind one day one time, i'll post it out loudly for all to read. (hopefully)

tats all i tink. haix...worries worries worries...damn.

my mind is full of thoughts, worries and my life is full of shit.

2009-02-20T00:21:00.000+08:00

fuck sia...i juz notice tat FIVE ppl talked to me at evening time through msn at the com in my room...damnit sia...cuz it juz sign in on its own like never before, and while i was out, leaving the com switched on...so juz nw sx told me tat he talked to me alot and i never reply, and i rushed to the com and saw pamela, yuanrong, haiqing, sx and agatha talkin to me...all those orange thingy...nowadays, technology is getting so scary tat i can never evade myself from it, and sad to say tat i've adhere to it and will never let technology leave me...so...it will still continue to haunt and scare me forever...OMG!

2009-02-20T00:07:00.000+08:00

SIALA! OMFG! FINALLY GOT TIS COM FIXED! but DAMNED! its re-formated...meaning, all the photos gone, all the documents gone, all those stupid things, ALL GONE!!! ARGH!

fuck sia...

2 days ago got back the com, then juz nw then got connected to the net...fuck la...

damn...got lots of things to post day after day after day...cuz reali...its been so long tat i last posted...(kinda long to me, i mean...)

well, hopefully tis blog's not left unconscious...well, the heart is still beating and WILL be beating for long...till i die i suppose...

well, later then post more...gotta download lots of stuffs back cuz its all FUCKING GONE!!! DAMN~!!!!!

2009-02-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

why is everyone in this world ignoring me?

2009-02-14T17:18:00.000+08:00

i hate my bloody life. its so sickening man...

*cherish wad u hav now, dun wait till its fckin late cuz time's not gonna rewind...it onli makes u regret, now, never or forever.

didnt get to post ytd cuz its kinda tired after work...suppose to finish at 10pm, but i delayed till 11pm plus, and punched-out at 1116hrs...then blahblahblah...go home, "find" my bed and sleep...onli get to enter my dreams at 2.30am tis morning...cuz i cant sleep...then woken up at 7am, then go find someone, then quite a number of things happen after tat, but dun ask me wad...its for me to knw and for u to find out (not from me).

well, if u conclude my life, its reali so sickening to live...i cant even imagine wad's my future gonna be...damned! so wad the hell am i loitering ard the world? fckin waste of resources to keep me fckin alive right? its so weird.

sometimes it gets even boring if some fckers juz work and neglect u...its even even worse if u put in ur effort to make tat person happie and he/she juz fckin ignore it or didnt even say a word, worse come to worse, didnt even take a fckin look at ur fckin face!

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so juz remember to cherish wad u got and wad others offer, especially ur loved ones, friends or whoever make a bloody effort to do something good to u or treated u well. cuz in the end, if u didnt cherish, u'll be regreting for ur entire fckin life! damned!

2009-02-13T05:42:00.000+08:00

juz nw (previous night)...work at vivo city...suppose to start work at six, but i reach at 5pm, so directly start work...kinda regret not to roam ard the shopping mall before six...so...maybe its fate?

well, they started promoting the valentine's day set meal from today and dunno end at when...then got some weird things included tat i hav never seen before in my entire life -sarcastic right? but its true. well, see it to believe it...

haix...nowadays, i'm troubled, lost, dilemma, bored...

damn its such a damn confusion...why does the world hav such thing as 'valentine's day'? omfg.well, on my 10feb post i mention abt the full moon, and here's a pic of it...took it cuz 1st, i'm bored; 2nd, my blog doesnt hav much picture ever since my cheerful side is gone.

there's the moon tat hav been 'arrowed'...dunno why every pic i uploaded isnt as clear as others...dammit...i'm totally not sure its the problem with my css coding or the way i upload or any other shits tat causes all these shitty effect to my blog...damn...tink no one can ever help, so juz leave it like tis -shit.

well, i tink tats all i hav currently...reali so bored and didnt wish to post much...

2009-02-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

today, met up with sanly, and supposinly waikhee but he's feelin unwell.
met to discuss abt the 2-8 '06 bbq thingy, and well, samantha and linda came few hours after i met sanly...
then my way home at ard 7pm plus, and decided to visit the library again, cuz in there i could concentrate in my reading like no other places...and so i went to the library, find a book mum wanted, and sat at the same place tat i sat on two days ago...and started reading the same book...

well, i felt such a freeze in the library after nearly 1 hr of my reading, and i decided to leave the shopping mall and head home...juz at the time i left the building, its freezing cold out there (and maybe i was the one instead)...well, hunger, loneliness and cold...wads the combination? was it suppose to be like tat or wad?

i am alwaes hoping to see her ard...while i'm in the street walking, i'm alwaes thinkin how good it will be to see her again...even for once, juz a glance...i've been thinkin, reminiscing...when will the day come? i shld say: will the day ever come?

Death is a refuge. It's where u go when a new name, or a mask, can no longer hide u from urself. It's where u run to when none of the principalities of ur conscience will grant u asylum.

2009-02-10T02:00:00.001+08:00

well...although its over, but still wanna say HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! to sanly...

2009-02-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

ah...cant manage to post tis before 12 (i tink)...is the time 12? i didnt notice anyway...

but well, tis night, if u notice, its full moon...and i mean NOTICING it more than KNOWING it...well, i've stand below my block juz before i reach home for almost 3 mins juz to stare at the moon...its been reali a long time since a person reali appreciates the beauty of the moon, although its been up there for so many years, but nowadays ppl like facing technology and the rest of everything but not nature...hmmm...what if one day nature juz disappeared in our mother-earth...wad would happen to us humankind? think abt it...

well, other than that, nothing much special happen to me today, juz work and after tat, walk ard suntec and then took the train and make my way home...but since it was still early when i reached cck, i decided to went to lot 1, and when i took the escalator up, i was thinkin where the hell can i go? alone? and i decided to go to the library, since i seldom enter it since it was closed down for renovation, cuz it happen before and during my 'O's, and throughout my exams i'm studying at home and some other places with my friends, and by the time the renovation ended, i'm alr lookin for jobs and activities...except for books, whereby i reali threw them aside...

so back to the topic; juz nw when i was at the library, i am tryin to find books in cateories tat i hav never reali concentrate on, especially fiction books...i am alwaes more interested in science books, non-fiction, facts and mysteries and so on, and didnt reali read books such as those thriller action, love horror, and so on tat are found in fiction books...so juz nw, i notice a bright orange book which the title interest me..."the other hand" by chris cleave. So, i find myself a seat, and sat down with the book in my hand, and started reading it...its kinda interesting and its one of my very first time reading a fiction book tat seriously...lols...so...its kinda new and fresh experience for me...

so i borrowed it, and also another pizza book for my brother, cuz he's currently baking pizzas whenever he's free...so juz to increase the bakery skills of his and adds on more idea to him, as it may also lead to me eating those tat he made...=P

hahas...perhaps tats the end of today...

i love u.

2009-02-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

yea...zhiting, sanly and ferlicia are so so so so honoured to hav me and sx's FIRST time for the neoprint...hahas...and perhaps for zhiting the good girl, its the first time to enter the arcade bah...

hahas...

well, its reali reali fun lor...anyway i dun mind spending so much money to hav fun with friends and well, excitement is as well in it too...hahas...

damn i gonna go work tml...so...like some others...we are all busy again...do hang out often ya.

boring again...juz dota-ed with sx and AI. then accidentally quit-ed the game...so now msn-ing (well, no one...some got sch tml, some work, some goin activity...) so...reali bored lor...sianz...

missing her so much...its reali been so long since i see her...real long...

and well, dun even knw wad to do or say even if i saw her...but juz wanna meet her up one day and hopefully the day will come...and so...hope she had a great day ahead...and hope she doesnt suffer in tat shitty job...=(

iloveu

2009-02-08T16:30:00.000+08:00

omg...every time after i hav a fun outing with my friend, i'll miss tat day so much...

all the time, all these while, i had so little time to hav fun with so many of my friend...

ytd was reali a day to be remembered...

reali reali hope everyone will be goin out together as often as we used to be in the past and present...

well, we'll be goin seperate ways from now, after our secondary sch life, but still there'll be time to hang ard often whenever everyone of us are free...perhaps some outing session and so on...

hmmm...

well, i'm still missing my dar...reali...those great memories in the past...those things that happen to us...everything

i love u'

2009-02-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

+wah...today quite tiring, but very very fun la...go out with zhiting, ferlicia, sanly, waikhee and sx...then met huien at jurong mrt, and she's oso goin to the same place as us -bugis...
+then we go there, huien go meet her friend, then we go bugis junction..., then shop shop shop, walk walk walk, then saw neoprint thingy, and go there and its me and sx de FIRST time la...omg...we gave our FIRST time to the girls sia...lols...
+then each of us got 4 neoprint, then we continue shop, go kinokuniya, then after tat saw huien again, and then walk with her everywhere, then we go pasta mania for lunch, 7 ppl ate $86.00 plus GST...then blahblahblah...after tat, we go to arcade at bugis, played car racing game, the hammer thingy, the shooting, and some weird and fun game...somemore, we spent lots of $$$ there for the UFO catcher...bloody hell sia...spend so many $$$, then the UFO catch nothing nia...bloody hell sia...then in the end we left the place, depressed...
+then after tat, we go to bugis street, shop things for my dar, then we go around and around find things...then at 5plus, zhiting gonna leave, then we go suntec city, secret recipe to find anwar, and also hav some cakes...then after tat, we left, and continue walkin ard and shopping and talk etc...then go to food court at suntec, sx ate, shantini called, and then we go walk walk at suntec, then at ard 7plusplus, huien need go sembawang...then she left, and the rest of us, sanly, ferlicia, waikhee and sx go to the suntec de arcade, play the motor racing and basketball thingy...and tat weird game...
+then we left at ard 8.30pm, make our way home...then me and sx go tech whye, supposingly go there to meet xuejin and ashley to slack....but well, i didnt plan properly, and i knw its my fault...but after a while when we are there, ashley called and said he cannot make it, cuz he tml need go somewhere...then xuejin i nt sure, but its rather late and shag, so me and sx make our way home...
+and then ... today is reali a memorable day, but reali. i still tink it would be much much better if my dar is there too...haix...maybe one day...perhaps lor...hopefully...hmmm...i love u...(:

2009-02-06T14:50:00.000+08:00

wah...very dulan sia...
ppl tat shld contact me didnt contact me...
ppl tat say wan to go out, last minute tell me dun wan go...
CB sia...knn...

2009-02-05T14:50:00.000+08:00

suppose to be posting ytd night after i came back from work de...cuz i feel lyk posting ytd...
but now i dun feel lyk posting anything...but to let my blog continue breathing, i shld better post something...lols.

ytd work till 11plus then reach home...and i'm too tired by then, and went to bed straight after reachin home...and anyway gotta sleep early cuz tis morning i gotta wake up early to meet lutfil at cck stadium for jogging lyk wad we used to do this few mornings...(but in fact, we didnt jog todae becuz he's not feelin good, so we juz jog 1 round and went to do some workout at the fitness corner facilitated)...

later goin to work...so now goin to enjoy msn-ing...o.O

2009-02-04T04:04:00.000+08:00

juz woke up from a long long sleep...ytd from 5pm plus i sleep till juz nw 3.30am...

had a headache last noon...then now feelin much much better...

sian...ytd mornin go cck stadium jog with lut and sx, then go swim with them...

after tat i go sx hse to get the dota game folder, and went home...

then feel tired and unwell, and sleep...

days past by so quick...lol...

gonna play my psp liao...o.O

anyway so sorry to whoever whu pm me in msn the last night...didnt reply cuz i was sleeping...

hehs. so anyway tkcr everyone.

and OMG...ppl are tryin to do a series of eye test using my tagboard...=.= lols...

omg...i tink i failed my eye test too...

:::white red white red white red white red:::

2009-02-03T02:42:00.000+08:00

OMG SPAMMERS!!!

so scared lol...
>>>btw to zhiting: since when did u see white patch in my tagboard? lols...u are so *blur*...

>>>...and to ahjiing: CB la... LOL...

>>>anyway thanks alot for the "tagg" u ppl...lols...i will "reply" to u A.S.A.P. when i reali reali free...lols...c u ppl ard and tkcr!

my days are getting boring...damn holidays...*suffer*

2009-02-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

wah! siala! juz online and saw 38 regent ppl online...quite alot in my contact list cuz i didnt manage to add few more ppl...(i'm reali too bored to post tis sentence) =.=

well...juz nw after work go tiong bahru wait for sx, then acc him go see the doctor...then go eat dinner and back home..sianz...tml no work again, and well, goin to cck stadium for jogging tml morning with lut and again, sx...alwaes hang out with him cuz he is alwaes free anyway, and heard ashley wanna quit job...

haix...sat goin out with shantini and some other friends...oso dunno wan go where...cuz we havent get into details of the activities for the day...sianz...so anyway probably tryin to pack my days with outing etc cuz in case we'll be not as free as current days anymore after everyone has started their schooling life again...(kinda nervous and lookin forward to sch reopen)...

well...probably continue posting something at sometime later or tml bah...

damn boring...

2009-02-02T03:42:00.000+08:00

what if...

what if...one day u woke up in the middle of the night and found out that someone close to u had been gone, forever...

what if...one day u walk on the street and saw an accident and the victim was someone close to u...

what if...one day u walk on the streets and found someone close is lying dead...

what if...every second u missed, makes a difference and life are at stake...

what if...at a moment of time when u are tryin to cherish something, it has juz be gone before u ever notice...

what if...one day the world juz keep crushing down on you and there will be no turning back...

what if...every minute there will be someone in this world that could recieve your help, died because the help juz couldnt manage to reach in time?

what if...there are nowhere for you to go in your future life...

what if...u choose death and juz before u changed ur mind, u are in the last second of breathe...

what if...there will be no roads left for u to go and u felt so lonely like never before...

what if...u feel that nobody cares and u felt all of a sudden helpless and numb...

what if...u woke up someday and found out that u left the last day to live...

what if...u found urself being trapped in a situation, where onli u or ur loved ones can survive the situation...

what if...u gave up ur life for the sake of others to live on...

what if...others sacrifise their precious life juz for u...

what if...u cared abt everything abt someone and tat someone juz neglected or ignored u...

what if...someone whu cared abt u were neglected or ignored by u...

what if...u are to spend ur entire life doin things which u may like but do good to nothing, no one and that leads to no future...would u continue or would u stop doin...

what if...every moment u spend on doin nothing, u can use the time to save lives of other ppl or living organisms...

what if...u didnt realise that this is the 20th "what if"...

sometimes in life...u do ur own decision...others onli give "advice", and do not count as "decide"...u can seek advice, but not seek decision...all the decision made, no matter its reversible or not, shld hav no regrets after being made...if there is, there must be a new decision made in order to clear one's doubt and trouble for making wrong decisions...never make the same mistake/wrong decisions...when living, u choose to live for urself or live for others...

"Only a life lived for others is worth living" - Albert Einstein

2009-02-02T01:02:00.000+08:00

to ashley chan: happie birthday

(well it juz passed 1hr and 3min) lols...anyway do tkcr bro...see u ard...(always)...

well...juz nw suppose to meet ash, ahjin, sx, boon, mak they all at 8pm, but i go bainian at 7plus till 11plus...all the adults got so many things to talk abt...damn boring there cuz no one entertain me except for my psp and the tv lor...sianz...
so i reached techwhye at 1145 (well they left at ard 10 plus to 11), at a coffeeshop behind the one we used to hang ard, and hav my dinner...then nw reached home...

reali boring days...luckily tml got work...but 4 hrs onli leh...stupid manager's stupid schedule...dunno how to plan...lyk he's paying us the salary lyk tat...put so little hours like its gonna kill if we work more hours and earn more...=.=

bored.bored.bored.

2009-02-01T06:40:00.000+08:00

hmmm...i knw its late...i'm turnin to bed soon...

been to sx's hse to visit him juz nw at ard 8pm for CNY. with ash...

then walk home with ash, and msn, chat and chat and chat...

then juz finished watchin a jackie chan movie --for fun...

and missing her...so so so so lookin forward to see her...

and btw oso dunno when can go out with my friends...damn.

so anyway its been real boring...reali wan to find ppl to go out shoppin or maybe catchin a movie.

haix...stupid days stupid life...damn.

2009-01-31T01:07:00.000+08:00

haix...i tot i am alone at home...am i? i oso dunno why i dunno whether am i alone at home ornt...
juz nw when crossin road saw huiling and pamela, then talk for seconds, and continue my way back home...
its been a fuckin tiring day la...
29jan 3pm plus wake up till now still habent sleep sia...last mid-nite watch movie till ard mornin 5plus, then went to lie on bed, then the moe msg the notification to me at 6 plus plus, then sx msg me and called and ask wan go eat breakfast together with matthew ornt...then i say ok, and went to meet them...
blahblahblah...me and sx then meet yingcong at 10plus go take their hamper's salary etc.
then go funan see laptop, then at 2pm the 2 say tired, dun wan acc me go suntec walk, then they go home, and i head to my workplace, where i felt fckin boring from 2pm plus till 5pm plus sia...bloody 3 hrs, nth to do...then punch-in and work at 545pm...till 11pm plus, and went home...
damn tired...later goin gb with agatha...lols...
sian...everyone's currently talkin abt jae postin etc...wah...so far quite a number of ppl go nyp...sian...
well, gotta go gb le...hope everyone's hav a good day ahead...

2009-01-30T02:55:00.000+08:00

in 5hrs and 5 mins time onwards, we'll be gettin our jae posting notifications...

hmm...reali hope i could get into the first choice, and also for everyone to enter their desire courses without regrets..., but i still wish to enter the same school as her lor...

haix...

well, i reali miss the past and look forward into the future...but...which part of the story does this current situation belong to? the beginning, the end, or juz simply the worse part of the story? i'm still waitin for something good to happen to us, but...will there be any hope? [i'll wait...]

after all these while...i've been thinkin here and there, reminisce the past and also hope for the future...o.O

damn i'm so tired of this kind of life...thinkin abt doin something tat is different, perhaps findin somebody for some activity etc...still in the idea of plannin for the class outing...but whu will go? maybe someone lor...but some ppl is still fuckin busy lor...dammit.

- life is kinda bored when some ppl were juz too busy to care abt ur existence...damn!

2009-01-29T03:03:00.000+08:00

boring. boring. boring...

tat same old feelin is here to conquer me again...

damn!

haix...i've been missing to her daily and hourly...

so long didnt see her, and wonder when will i be able to meet her up again...

everyone's busy doin tis and tat...definitely no time to entertain me and some others for some outings...CONFIRM no time...

so, i alr knw its hopeless to ask ppl out...[their simply too busy for friends]

but well, shantini will be bck in 2 wks time, and sx and waikhee are also free...plan to ask some others...

but...whu will?

haix...

rachel oso say maybe got class outing...and need to ask a few of the others to help plan...(if there is an outing)...

so boring...nvr work tis wk, tot will go alot of ppl de hse to celebrate...but in the end, none...

the rest of the week will be bored...o.O

damn...

everyone's workin for long hours...how i wish i could do tat too...but tat irritating manager juz dont knw how to plan our schedule well...

damn!

well, i reali reali wish there's something to occupy me and my time throughout this 2 months (heard tat poly start at april)...

is there anything to "eat" my time away other than being boring???

blahblahblah...its been so bored!!!

2009-01-28T05:01:00.000+08:00

juz finish watchin the movie called Equilibrium, starring Christain Bale (Batman)...
from my point of view, i tink its pretty nice...reali...one of the best i've ever watched...quite unique...
i dun heard it ever before until i saw the trailer at youtube..., and i dun tink many of u heard of tis movie before...
but its available on youtube, and do catch it, cuz its worth watching...
here's the link:

[part 1] [part 2] [part 3] [part 4] [part 5] [part 6] [part 7] [part 8] [part 9] [part 10] [part 11]

2009-01-28T01:16:00.000+08:00

is there any problem with my blog? different internet browser has different effect...
weird~juz nw went to my cousin's hse for CNY celebration, then used felicia de 'friend' de mac-book (browser: safari), then while viewing my blog, i notice the font size etc are all different from those which i saw using tis comp i use for posting and editing...hmmm...(well F.Y.I., i am using windows internet explorer)...some say mozilla firefox is a better browser etc...i dunno la...maybe in some part of the world, ppl cant even view my blog...maybe i edit too much or is it the problem with the css etc thingy...aiya...dun care la...

hope or hopeless?

well, i've got such a weird feelin all the time towards everything...sometimes when bad things happen to u which cause u to feel bad, u will be thinkin: "is there any hope to recover tis situation?"...things do happen to me here and there, bad and good, but recently things aint kinda good...and i've been dwellin onto the same old question in my mind...ppl say i am emo etc and well, in fact, i am...

but nowadays i've been TRYING my best to think positive and ytd after chattin with gerald-tay (a primary school friend of mine), he did giv me alot of advice here and there on tis and tat and well, i felt much better la...although some good stuffs u heard might cause false hope, but why not absorb some false hope which could giv truely good emotion to mind, body and soul?, rather than some true words which brings negative mindset towards life etc...

wad i think...

i was thinkin...in life, sometimes we gonna find our interest and grew passion to it, love it, know it, understand it, etc...for example...if u love science, specifically astronomy stuffs (for me, yes) , u shld read on it etc, rather than stayin at home gamin 24hrs, or goin out for the entire day and walk along the same street and doin stuffs which doesnt even matter if u do it once or twice lyk: walkin through the shoppin mall which u used to walk by almost everyday...

at least: DO SOMETHING MEANINGFUL...readin can increase knowledge, studying can deepen intelligence, etc...

its not all abt those boring books and words and sentences...

sometimes, the word meaningful can mean alot...

it can be goin for volunteering work at some orphanage or old folks home, goin for SPCA volunteering, helpin human, animals and probably nature etc...

it can also be sitting down together with friends and INTERACT/COMUNICATE etc...

think again, and tat will all be alot alot better than ENTERTAININ the same old computers, and playin online games etc.

2009-01-26T19:34:00.000+08:00

did i miss something todae? the solar eclipse?
woke up at 5 plus and notice tat i miss out the solar eclipse reported at news ytd, sayin tat it will occur at ard 4pm tis noon. so, didnt care much lyk most of my friends, then eat and sat here again lyk wad i used to do daily---boring!

2009-01-26T02:32:00.000+08:00

all these while, my mind is still filled with thoughts (as usual).
i've been thinkin abt all sorts of things tat i used to dwell on...
its chinese new year, and had a reunion with my family the evening before.
then after the reunion dinner, i sat in front of the comp till now, but still tinkin of her...
reali feel so bored...everyone's busy, sleepy and had no time to afford for entertainin me. (as if there's ppl whu reali care abt me)
i've been findin someone whu can chat with me at msn or even talk through the phone, but then...there isnt much, and usually, none.
i've been missing her alot, as we hadnt meet up for long since the day we took our results.
well, i didnt dare to ask for much, and its better for me to giv in...

heard tat jc's gonna start at feb and poly's gonna start at either feb or most probably april...
badbadbad for me.
IF its gonna start at april, it means tat i'm gonna be alone (and damn alone) throughout the entire of feb and march...and its reali reali boring, cuz my workin hours is reali damn short and i currently had to stick with onli 1 job, and somemore everyone is workin and (some closer friends) will be studying by tat time.
i'll be continue worrying abt her day after day cuz it seems tat she's suffering at tat particular job of hers, and somemore the workin hours there are kinda tough...
damn-damn-damn.
i'll be in search of ppl whu wanna go out on weekends and to plan or participate in the plan of some activities...currently: hiking/trekking with din, lut, fiq, yazid and prit fortnightly (hopefully)...
haix...i'll be boring again after tis post...

2009-01-25T00:50:00.000+08:00

didnt hav anythin good happenin to me and for me to tell.

juz nw went "shopping" with sx, then saw matthewfong at IMM de some shop and hav a short chat, then went jurong point n sx buy something, and meet anwar, then eat, then go home.

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life is short, and i've been tryin to cherish everythin i could, but things hav been slipping of me all the time...

does anybody knw the word called "cherish"? if yes, why the hell is everyone ignoring me? damn!

wad if i die at tis moment? (skarly). cuz in tis world, reali anythin will happen to anyone at anytime, anywhere. tats why some ppl juz got dead after a normal jog or maybe dead when swiming or even walking...

well, i'm (probably) better, but reali. i cant understand why things didnt turn out wad i thought?

maybe i'm giving too much pressure to everything, and giving too much hope, and perhaps things are goin on real fast, but i juz wanna keep things right and good and memorable for us and/or me alone.?

tis might be the end, but i will still do my best and play my part to keep things still and probably (hopefully) make things get better..

2009-01-23T00:48:00.000+08:00

currently:
there's no way to cheer me up.
i'm so miserable.
i'm willing to take up all responsibilities;
but are u willing to give me a chance?
i need change, u've changed.
its all not as usual as wad it used to be...

2009-01-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

is there anything such as eternity?
i feel so lost.
will there be future/forever?
things are turnin to be worse day by day.
ppl ask me not to be sad, but how can i be happie?
i am changing. u are changing. everyone's changing.
so wad to do now? -sit, wait and die?

2009-01-22T04:06:00.000+08:00

i'm feelin so dead.

2009-01-21T00:56:00.000+08:00

what's there to live?
what is the reason and purpose of life?
all these while, i've been dwelling on the same old topic...
i've come to an end tat life doesnt even mean anythin to me...
wad shld i do now?
i've been findin the passion to life as a reason to live...
but there isnt any...
the reason for me to live if u...
i'm bored, tired, sad, ...
i used to keep things to myself after somethin happen on someday few years ago.
tryin to find someone whom i will talk things to...
but...

2009-01-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

wad shld i say?
[i'm speechless]

2009-01-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

how can a heart be broken?

2009-01-12T16:18:00.000+08:00

how do u mend a broken heart?

2009-01-12T00:02:00.000+08:00

Suphmmm.nw feelin: excited, nervous and lots of confusion of many different feelin...-unexplainable.

nervous cuz gotta see the damn results...haix.

excited cuz gotta see dear... =.= ...reali long time nvr see her alr la...so cant blame me for being lyk tis...

damn damn damn...excited~!!! nervous~!!!

the feeling is much worse than that of the day before all the 'O' level papers la...damn!

2009-01-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

its time to centralise everything now...

tml getin results alr...argh! wonder wonder wonder...how bad will it be for me?
now i notice --time pass by real fast...notice tat at nov08, we was lyk tryin to stuggle through all the papers in a month, and dec08, we was lyk findin job lyk hell, and to some, workin lyk crazy ppl, and suddenly, 08 has pass, and 09 comes, and after 1.5wks, we will be gettin our results tat may determine our future!!! HAIX...
sometimes i reali reali cant get enough time to do wad i wan, cuz perhaps, i didnt reali cherish it well...probably there'll be regrets in everythin i do? hmm...sadded...
well, lookin forward to poly life, but still worrying abt my results right now...i estimated, and well, not tat good tat i could enter my desire course, and so...reali reali dun feel so good rite now...haix...
anyway...gonna meet dear tml, and well, probably msn-ing now, and do some stupid stuffs on the net, and the com...so bye.

2009-01-11T03:08:00.000+08:00

ouh. i am back again to post... =.=

well, its late and gotta work later on at 12noon...sian...muz wake up at 8am plus...damn!

probably get to sleep now...

damn i am thinkin of lots of stuffs rite now...damn damn damn...

well, i am still coughin and having running-nose since few days ago...freakin suffering...

and somemore gotta be stress on monday...worried and nervous and scared.

hmmm...the good thing is tat i can see dear on tat day...but the worst is to come after all these years of education...

bored bored bored

2009-01-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

well well well, nowadays work, home, msn, blog, sleep, dream, eat, bath, think, wonder, curse ppl, miss ppl, etc. ---such a boring life dammit.!
hmm...so...wanna find somethin tat i dun do usually, some fun activities or maybe outing with friends? but where's the time? everyone's busy, and currently i am hooked-onto my own job too...so...does anyone wanna ask me out?

damn juz nw's work was fun man!!! with syiddiq and iraimi, and yusof too...haha...

laughin lyk hell of any shit abt tat bra-man dammit! haha...joking ard and so...

then juz nw while moppin the floor during closing time, saw ziyad, and well, anwar wasnt ard cuz he went to MSQ cuz there need ppl...so, talk to ziyad for a while, from 10 plus till close to 11pm, then he go off to work...

well, gonna be seeing all those schoolmates on monday, and hope its not the last time i'll be seeing them...(hope so)...well, gotta go hav my dinner, and of to thiensen's hse to collect something.

("anyone there?", i ask myself)

2009-01-10T14:29:00.000+08:00

well, i've been tryin so hard to find someone to talk to all the time...

well, so boring life...been workin these days...

btw, forgot to post this two 'events' tat happen 2 days ago while i am workin:

no.1: saw rachel...

well, when i saw her, i feel surprise definitely, cuz its so RARE to see ppl from my school, especially friends tat pass by tat area, cuz tat place is reali deserted la...and so when she saw me, she was like having the urge to run towards me la...then she was then shouting my name and ya, i did approach her, well, to talk (not quarell lyk wad we used to do in the past)...haha. then for a while, cuz i was workin, and she's with some friends (bf i tink), and so ya...kinda happie to see her ard la...

no.2: playin toothpick with adelina...

well, its so damn boring there la, especially weekdays, no customer and those tat are present, are all eatin and sitting down talkin etc.

so we was lyk so boring, and got nth to do, and we took the toothpicks and play la...(lyk crazy ppl)...=.= i knw its childish, but when someone gets bored, anythin tat are in sight can be used as a form of entertainment...hahs.

...tats the 2 events tat happen on 8jan la. well, tats all i hav to say.

'i miss u

2009-01-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

haish. monday take results liao. anyway i oso dun tink tat i will score well...haish. sadded.
plus, so long long time no see my girl liao...miss her lots. damn i've been tinkin and worryin and missin everythin abt her. hmm...

so far, not much progress...HOPE tat more stuffs (good ones obviously) will happen to me and her...'HOPE' so whether will anythin happen depends on her and well, me too...

been listening to lots of chinese songs tat i used to listen in the past few years, and some new ones these days...juz kinda feel lyk listenin to those love songs...hmm...

how i feel nw, reali reali no one can, will and ever understand...(and pls dun ever ask why cuz i wun say anythin abt it)...

shack after a day's work. and tml my dear is gonna go back to work after 2 days of rest, and i reali reali hope tat she take good care of herself, and dun overwork la...but i knw tat she confirm wont read this post. so its juz a WISH...

haix...didnt feel well this two days...throat pain, then hav been coughin and sneezing for the entire of today...damn! then somemore juz nw my leg kena the hot mop water at the forum secret recipe there...damn it sia.

xinhui i love u =p

2009-01-09T00:21:00.000+08:00

my dear is off this two days, thurs and fri...wondering how is she and everythin...

she shld probably be resting (hopefully), and hope tat she's fine.

workin the entire day todae, kinda shack cuz todae reali no one workin and i've been mopping the damn floor for dunno how man times (thanks to the manager)...say wan to mop the floor from black to white (but basically the color of the tile is black)... =.= so be it, i'll be mopping and luckily when closing, i reali enjoyed mopping. =.= (first time mop with that much effort).

so...my day juz finish.

a brand new day will start (well, it has alr started).

hope everythin will be fine, and i'll be posted to some other outlet and i reali dunno how to get there...so maybe gonna spend some time tml finding the location of that outlet...

been missing u here and there and everywhere...

boring...

gotta take the results soon, and i'll be glad to see u on tat day, and most probably the worst thing is all abt my results...damn!

well, reali wanna see u as soon as possible...haish. sadded.

i'm still worrying abt all the stuffs tat i used to worry - all abt u...more and more...

my dear: i love u.

2009-01-07T19:43:00.000+08:00

finally i face the comp and here to blog.
been tired and shack after workin these days, the flyer with thiensen and secret recipe.
but kinda love it...-cuz its fun!
and notice thiensen love readin books, especially "lee child"'s book series...so i am oso hooked on my astronomy handbook cuz my psp is currently hospitalised cuz of some slight problem here and there, and goin for maintenance by sx this coming monday, cuz goin sch for o lvl results...
damn i am so so so so worry abt my results man...hope could enter my desire course, but not easy la...haix.
juz recieve mails (paper mail) from some poly open hse thingy, a mail from republic poly and one from the navy...
so probably replying later (by mail too), after i am home...

i've been worrying abt u baby.
words tat i hav not expressed doesnt mean it hav never cross my mind;
actions tat i've not take doesnt mean tat i dun care.
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its not easy to express how u feel sometimes towards someone u love.
sometimes u r juz waiting for him/her to notice,
but its takes a longer time tat u expected.
sometimes u were juz tryin to understand him/her,
but its more complicated than u ever expected.
some worries are juz left down deep inside u,
but him/her might never notice,
and even they did,
they might not understand truely.
its complicated to tell than to feel.
to those whu understand, cherish ur him/her and do ur best in understanding and loving.
to those whu dun understand, maybe one day u will, or never forever...

2009-01-05T06:31:00.000+08:00

hmm...juz cleared the "flashy.exe" thingy...

and fixed the psp memory card (memory stick) prob...

reminiscence...

in the past, all weekdays at tis hour, i'll be waitin for my dear...

miss the past, awaits the future...

lalala~time flies, is flying, has flied, flown, had been flying ... ... ...so fast.

we will never catch it by foot...(if u dunno wad it means, i'll be left wordless).

well, its so suffering to miss someone whu u love...

and, i'm suffering.

2009-01-05T03:05:00.000+08:00

haix...i miss my dear alot!...dammit.!

damn my com kena virus again...tis time, not trojan, but something called "flashy.exe".
its a damn cruel virus...dunno how i get it, but it disabled the com's task manager once the com is infected with this virus, and it will spread to folders even in memory cards, makin the main folders hav the '.exe' extension, which means its an application instead of a file folder, and its "read-only", no editing of it etc. It will cause lots of problems, and currently my harddrive got some prob, and i suspect its the cause of tis virus. all the folders in my psp memory card and my phone memory card hav all been changed into an application, and ytd i hav juz restore everthin in my phone, and today, my psp...damn!

anyway hope all others wont get tis irritating virus...
-currently tryin to get rid of it-

2009-01-02T19:12:00.000+08:00

the second post of 2009, and also the second day...

well, sec sch has started...reali reali miss the past lyk some of my friends do...

so currently getting online at msn and playin psp...

wonder why no one online at msn at tis time...usually there's lots of ppl, but today there's so little...maybe becuz of the sch reopen or wad? wondering why...

i've been chattin to yizhen all this while since ytd, crappin here and there cuz there aint anyone whom i can chat with...and she's also free anyway...so juz chat with her lor...

been missing my dar for so long...

'i luv u dear...

2009-01-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

didnt wish to post anythin...-not in the mood...

anyway HAPPIE NEW YEAR to all!!!

well, its 2009, didnt hav any resolutions lyk wad i said previously, cuz i wont reali follow those words tat i wrote, but those in my wishlist are exceptional. cuz i WISH for it...=.=

but reali a boring day...wanna earn money but tat fuckin job doesnt get me anywhere...damn!

and wanna help out in my brother's business but he didnt gave any assignment for me to do! damn!

so...definitely many of my friends out there are earning big bucks but there are still some ppl somewhere whu still get to nowhere, and the holiday is gonna end real soon, and for those whu are in sec sch life, sch's gonna start tml...{reali miss sch life --- all those fun-times, all my dearest friends, and all the time i had with the someone}...

but...its all the past...let us make our future the better day for all to live in...(well, hopefully it will get better)...

2008-12-31T19:13:00.000+08:00

i alwaes thought tat i got lots of friends tat will accompany me all the time, but...so far onli few of them are with me man...sadded...the end of 2008 is gonna be lyk tis man...such a lonely person...

but it seems tat lots of ppl out there are also gonna be alone for the last minute of the year...

i juz feel lyk spending my last minute of the year with my dear, but it doesnt seems to be goin tis way, so forget it bah.

and somemore...she's workin nw...althought its new year's eve...

supposingly Albert called tis morning and ask whether could i work at CPF building for today cuz they are lack of manpower, but i rejected, cuz i am reali too tired to get myself up after so many days of 'lackness of sleep'...so juz stayed at home and do my own computer-stuffs...

kinda bored without her...

damn!

but probably and hopefully, me and waikhee can go to thiensen's house later on to 'celebrate' new year...still waitin for further news from them.

so hope everyone enjoyed their last day of 2008 and hope everyone hav a joyous 2009 ahead!

-and hope my dear take good care of herself and dun overwork...

Adiós!

2008-12-31T16:30:00.000+08:00

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and soon to be married

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger.

I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions... She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...

I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more.

Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah.

These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy.

Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

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2008-12-31T04:33:00.000+08:00

tired and bored to death...
loneliness falls from the sky...
save me from the mess, baby.

2008-12-30T22:13:00.000+08:00

haix...2008 is gonna end real soon...
so many things happen to the world, to you, to me and to us...
saw and attend quite a number of events, mostly organized by the sch such as the cultural nite, graduation day etc...memories are all left behind...
well, i've been dwelling on all the greatest memories by my friends, besties and my bestest girl.
seriously i miss everything tat happen to us, and all the things tat happen in school, especially my class...real fun in the past, but now, all of us has been goin our own ways -seperately...
reali hope to be like how we are in the past my friends...is it possible? make it all happen again please...all the fun tat we had...and all the brother&sisterhoods...hmmm...the class of 4-5'08 will remain a history forever...

AND all those things tat happen to me and my dearest girl...reali miss it all...all those time tat we had in the past will reflect how we are now...and wad we are now will be the reason of our future...

AND also my NCC brothers...well, although we've been goin our own ways since we step down and stop attending for our training, goin home together, hanging out at some void decks at night after every training and all the stuffs tat we used to do together in the past, but, we'll still be hanging out together in future i guess...we're still brothers man!

CHERISH WAD U HAV NOW BEFORE ITS GONE...

so maybe i tink i shld hav some new year resolution, but i didnt tink tat theres a need cuz i alwaes go on my own way instead of following the rules and procedures i composed...so no point creating one UNLESS someone did it for me, and i'll follow for the sake of him/her...but juz forget it...

haix...miss u so so so so much man... o.O

2008-12-30T00:45:00.000+08:00

haish...didnt reali feel well in the past few days...feel lyk shitting...=.=

and somemore my tat toe kena infection and i am tryin my best to heal it myself but it doesnt seems to recover...(well, its better than previous anyway).

haish..."ytd" (monday) work from 11am till 8pm, then after reachin home and eat, met up with taufiq and went for joggin till 10/11pm, then bath, iron clothes, eat a little and nw face the com finally for the day...gotta get some sleep cuz plannin to wake up early, and work as usual, but at CPF building instead of suntec lyk ytd.

haix...plan to find ppl out on new year eve to see stars (=.=) or probably fireworks, or maybe at least juz meet up, sit down and talk...havent had a good chat with many of my friends...especially her, but we did chat a little at x'mas eve, so probably tats a good thing...

gonna leave the com and get some sleep liao...

so bye all and tkcr!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

'i love u

2008-12-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

went out with my pap and mom tis noon till ard 9pm plus...
still catchin tat show i am watchin all the time...
and so listening some songs and chattin at msn currently...wad a bored life.
tml workin, tue workin, wed and thurs free totally, fri workin, sat and sun gotta hav some plannin on my activites...

so reali got nothin to do now...perhaps continue chattin and then sleep?

my dear todae never work (ferlicia told me)...and she muz be restin at home after a long term tiring work...kinda worry abt her sometimes...

and so hope you got a reali good and nice rest for today dear...love u lots.

2008-12-28T04:10:00.000+08:00

hi! i am back to post again!

i've been wasting so many hours of my life not workin and earnin money...

but...i hav too many aims to accomplish tis holiday...

-**i wanna hav a daily workout schedule

-*i wanna earn lots of money tis holiday

-*i wanna spend time with many friends

- i wanna buy lots of stuffs

-***i wanna spend lots and lots of time with my dear

-and got many many more...

*=priority level

and so, hmm...i knw its reali reali impossible to accomplish all, but i reali reali wanna try to...

haix...

i hav drop some of the real mood in earning that much money, cuz i didnt tink i reali need it that much tis holiday...

working out and exercising reali does a great help in future etc., and spendin time with dear, definitely gotta be even a greater thing to me...and so i probably gonna earn till my target, and i'll be glad enough, but i am still watchin the show...so wait till i finish and i'll do watever i can to accomplish all the aims...hmmm...

well, my blog is gettin cold and is dying...

tryin to figure out why...

aiya...lets wait till i finish watchin...then i'll talk later...

'missin u

2008-12-27T02:48:00.000+08:00

damn fuck! i cant reach my cash target liao...fuckin sad and moody...damn...fuckin shit...fuckin phone bill...
if anyone wan contact me for immediate or emergency purposes, please kindly call me through my phone...i may not reply cuz i didnt plan to pay the bills till i get richer...=P

2008-12-27T02:25:00.000+08:00

well, my toe hasnt heal from the blister yet...so perhaps will not be jogging later...(i'm tired too)

haix...when will i see my dear?!

haix...i am alwaes waiting and missing her...wanted to see her badly man...so many words to tell...

I WANNA HAV A LONG LONG CHAT!!!

hmmm...well i tink i shld go get some sleep and plan tml's event when i woke up, or maybe juz live a boring day tml? well it shld be...

'I MISS MISS U!!!

2008-12-27T00:26:00.000+08:00

yeah i am back! juz nw reached home by ard 12am...well, nw is 27dec le...

went to malacca at christmas morning, ard 5am plus...

then blahblahblah...eat alot, walk alot and travel alot this few days...lol...

probably goin to gain weight!!! T.T

so maybe later go jogging...so bored to be alone!!! argh!

well, supposingly juz nw at 8pm plus, was on the way back from JB, cuz started leavin malacca from noontime.

then actually planned to meet up dardar at her workplace and see her home, but unfortunately reached singapore at tis time...

haix...kinda miss her...

then somemore juz nw cant manage to on my phone for a while, and after tat it juz manage to be on...=.=

been watchin "The Legend Of Bruce Lee" from episode 1 to 15/40...still got a lot more to catch...

probably be callin ppl up for this and that these days? maybe...

and so...bye all!

well, so sorry to those whu tagged me cuz i am not near any networks throughout the journey oversea...so...happie "belated" christmas!!! LOLs. [anyway i am fine =P]

'i love u dear...MISSING U!!!

2008-12-25T02:38:00.000+08:00

i got lots and lots of things to say, but...juz dun feel lyk sayin to anyone except my dar, BUT! where's she to hear it? doesnt even hav plenty of sleep dammit...i'm worryin lyk fuck! she's been chionging her job lyk a bee in the garden! damn i cant even talk her around...but she seems to be happie workin there, but seriously i am reali worrying lyk a fuckin dude dammit...haix...

my bloody blog is reali dying...ppl were too busy and bored lookin and readin my BLOG!!! ARGH!!! SAVE IT PLEASE! economic is currently like SHIT! hope it does get better, so we'll hav more pay and more range of part-time jobs...=P

'i love love u baby!

2008-12-25T01:50:00.000+08:00

juz nw went to meet up my godsis at some 7-11, then she wan a present for x'mas, and i bought something lyk a pillow at there for her lor...since she ask for it on the spot...

then sat at her void deck and chat...then ya...after tat went home, and do wad i am doin nw -blogging...

so...its been a cold and lonely christmas for me...

thought nw since i had THAT much freedom, can go out and celebrate overnite and hav fun with friends, but still there's no one and so...reali feelin lonely lor...

goin to malaysia real soon, gonna miss my dardar real lot...

and well, probably HOPEFULLY i can see her real real soon bah...

haix...

still dwelling and worrying abt tis and tat...

wonder when will my worries be gone away from me? they are stickin onto me for months!!!

DAMNIT!

ITS SUCH A LONELY NIGHT, LONELY ME AND LONELY LIFE...HAIX...

MY DARDAR: WHERE ARE YOU ALL THE TIME?!?!?!

tis x'mas has been so different...not reali in the mood of it...juz dunno why...maybe becuz she's not there or wad?

feel so different lately...haix...LOTS OF WORRIES ARH!!!!!!

2008-12-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

haix...back to the lonely mood...

juz nw went to the bus interchange and hope to see her home...

was actually planning to acc her home all the way from her workplace, but she told me she end work at 8pm, and i woke up at tat time cuz i fell aslp at ard 4pm plusplus..., then after my dinner, its 8.30pm and it seems tat i might not be able to meet her by time even if i go to bukit panjang tat bus stop to meet her...

so i reach the bus interchange alighting point at ard 8.40pm, and saw many buses pass by, several 190, but she's not in sight all the time...

been real disappointed, cuz i am goin off to malaysia later on at 3am (25dec) with my family for shopping and fun purpose, and hope to see her before i leave singapore...but it seems tat tonite's plan has failed totally (totalled!)...

after tat, ard 1045pm, i saw a 190, and decided to leave if i didnt see her on tat particular bus...

but she's still not there, and i left, and on the way, i turn and saw another 190 bus, but still she's not there...haix...

haix...after tat i've been walkin to her hse, and here and there ard her hse and bus stop, the same old place i walk tis morning...

it has been a lonely night for me...

hopefully i'll be free tis wkend or wad to acc her for long long time...

HOPEFULLY...

haix. perhaps wait? till tis wkend and we'll see again...

btw i saw Diana juz nw while waitin for my dear...

then she was on the way to meet din, probably goin to celebrate X'mas or wad...

tis X'mas, planned to celebrate tis and tat here and there, but all did not succeed and everything...

tis holiday suppose to be a fun-filled one, but it seems lyk everyone's busy with their own stuffs and (especially) work...

so...maybe next time when we hav plenty of time?

reali reali wish to see my dear again (well, i am not tat satisfied although i did see her today)...

I WANT U TO BE BY MY SIDE!!!!!

'i luv u!